Wednesday 10/18/17: Reflection

Good morning guys! It’s currently 5:43am. And guess where I am? In my favorite spot on campus– the Janns steps grassy hill! I brought my yoga mat out here today, so I’m really looking forward to not having to saunter around in wet pants.

I’m all alone out here, but I feel completely safe. UCLA is my second home, and I’m so glad I decided to stay, instead of transferring to some other university.

Vivaldi’s Four Seasons is playing in the background from my MacBook Air. A dog and its owner have just trotted past me– cool to know I’m not the only one who likes to start their day early. I love waking up early, getting things done efficiently and having the rest of the day for my own enjoyment.

Game plan for today:

  • Meditate
  • Finish Russian homework (I was so tired last night I couldn’t finish my handwriting practice)
  • Read ahead for LS 15 and Psych 100A (stats)
  • Go to Russian class
  • Meet with a Daily Bruin writer for an interview on my sexual assault experience
  • prep for today’s LS 15 quiz (easy-peesy lemon squeezy)
  • Meet up with LS 15 debate group before our 2pm discussion to discuss our debate next week
  • LS 15 discussion until 4pm
  • Go back to apartment, eat food
  • STUDY!!!!
  • Dance practice at John Wooden Center
  • Dinner (in Westwood, maybe)
  • run errands (groceries, bank account stuff, etc.)
  • Call Mom sometime during the day

It’s getting a bit chilly. I just took my sweater off, as the walk to campus from my apartment warmed me up, but I shall now put it back on. Give me a sec.

Alrighty, I’m back. So a couple nights ago, UCLA’s Regents Scholar Society hosted a professional development night, where a couple finance companies– D.E. Shaw, and another one whose name I keep forgetting– came and spoke to us about internship opportunities. There, I crossed paths with the guy I liked for most of last year (and, to clarify, he did not share my sentiment).

I am 100%– no, 1000%– over him, but seeing him still brings up feelings of embarrassment, as he was my first real rejection. I wish we could still be friends, but it is what it is. Anyway, I did not so much as gaze in his direction (okay, maybe I did a couple times), but refused to say hello, as I was too uncomfortable. It’s okay. He’s graduating a year early, so this year will be his last at UCLA, and I’ll never have to see him again! Lol, Belicia. What is this, middle school? Real talk, though, this experience brings up memories of my awkward adolescence– ducking around corners and hiding from crushes, cute guys and good-looking teachers alike, instead of standing my ground and keeping my wits about me.

It’s 6:07am now, and the drowsiness is setting in. I’m gonna relax and meditate now, then start on my homework when the sun starts to rise. Talk to y’all soon!


Hey guys! Just finished the last of my classes for the day. Feeling: super motivated to study hard and learn. Why? Because today in my LS 15 discussion, I was the only one who answered the question about sex-linked traits incorrectly (the TA had everyone raise their hands for the answer they thought was correct. I was the only person who raised their hand for option “C”). I’m not angry or ashamed of myself for answering incorrectly. I’m just concerned that I’m not grasping the concepts thoroughly, which is why I must study harder. Granted, I have been putting the least amount of time into LS 15, as most of my time is allotted to studying Russian and Psych 100A. This is the consequence.

I know I’m very, very, VERY far from being a genius, by any standard. In some ways, I’m grateful for my lack of innate intellectual ability, as I’ve been forced to work hard for what I achieve, which makes my accomplishments all the more meaningful.

So, plan for the rest of the day:

  • Study LS 15. Read textbook and take notes; make flashcards for important vocabulary terms; type up last week’s free-response quiz answer and correct what I got wrong (I got a 10 out of 12 on last’ week’s quiz, which is at least better than the 7 out of 12 I got on my first quiz). (2 hrs)
  • LS 15 debate: research on debate topic and gather sources. Our group goes next week! (1 hr)
  • Russian 1: study today’s grammar rules– nominative and prepositional cases, as well as new vocabulary (2 hrs)



Hey everyone! I’m laying under my covers, finishing up today’s post, whilst listening to the soundtrack of “Crimson Peak”. LOVE that movie, btw. One of the few horror films that are actually decent. Anyway, today ended up being quite productive. As planned, I studied LS 15 and Russian 1. I managed to negotiate my quiz grade with my LS 15 TA via email. She ended up bumping up my grade from a 10/12 to 12/12. She had made a mistake in my grading, and I pointed it out to her. Gotta give myself credit where credit’s due, right?

The remainder of the night was spent editing some international students’ college admissions essays. I’m getting paid for doing something I enjoy– though editing can be a huge pain at times, especially when the writer has yet to grasp the basic fundamentals of the English language. I can’t imagine how difficult it must be, though, for international students to write essays in a foreign language. A for effort, indeed!

Tomorrow’s gonna be a long day. Office hours for LS 15 in the morning, followed by office hours for Russian 1, followed by LS 15 lecture, followed by a Bruin Toastmasters meeting, followed by Psych 100A class in the afternoon. Then study and dance. It’s a good life, and I truly mean it when I say it.

Alrighty, guys, I’m gonna end the post here. Gotta get some shut-eye before tomorrow’s long haul.



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