My Swift Descent Into Madness

Hey guys! It’s 4:53am as I sit in my bed, typing out this post. Sleep is not coming easy tonight, nor has it been for the past week. I suspect it has to do with the recent shift in my medication regimen. I was on an antipsychotic medication, Abilify, for over a year-and-a-half, and the medication has made me gain a significant amount of weight. Tired of feeling fat and constantly fighting carb cravings, I urged my psychiatrist to put me on a different medication called Geodon. I started taking Geodon about two weeks ago. I tapered off the Abilify and now I am completely off of the old medication. Almost overnight, my cravings for carbs and sweets disappeared. I find myself barely eating anything all day!  This past week, my sleep schedule has been totally out of whack. I sometimes find myself wide awake until 6am, and when I finally fall asleep, I don’t wake up until 3pm! Take tonight, for instance. I went out with my friends in San Francisco and danced hard all night. Came home at around 3am. Took a shower and got ready for bed. I’ve been trying to sleep for the past 2 hours, but to no avail. So I opened up my laptop and started writing. Even now, as I type out this blog post, I am wide awake. My brain is a little bit foggy, and the words are not flowing as fast as they usually do, but still, sleep will not come.

I can already sense a manic episode coming. In fact, I very well might be in the midst of a manic episode right now! After I finish typing this post, I will email my doctor and see what other options we have. In the meantime, I will try my best to manage the illness to slow down my swift descent into madness (the phrase is melodramatic, but I liked the sound of it, so there you have it).

Have a wonderful night, guys! Or rather, have a wonderful DAY!





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